Uche's Blog

This was my second trip round the market. Just one thing had brought me here and I realised I had spent almost half of my day here already. A black shirt.  "Check the next shop." They continued to tell me as I moved from one stall to another. It was getting really frustrating. No black shirt in the whole cloth market seemed to fit perfectly. It was either too small or not perfectly as black as I wanted.  Don't blame me for being too picky. I just needed something I would indeed value. I began blaming myself for putting up so much weight.  "Look how fat you've become, now no shirt can even fit you." I heard my inner self say. Then the thought of buying maybe a dark blue shirt came in. That won't be bad after all. They were almost the same. But again, no.  On another thought, I knew I would regret it later. I patiently continued my search. But my efforts turned out futile. No one still fit perfectly. It was time to go. I indeed felt bad that I had wasted m

Hello guys My name is Onaedo I'm here to talk about my depression People ask me Why are you aren't you ever happy? Despite how hard I try I can't bring myself to be happy I feel stifled, ashamed and embarrassed. Sometimes I wonder how I became this way I have an amazing family, Good academic results And loving friends Everything is fine on paper But all I ever see is sadness and grief There is this burden on me Pulling me down And no matter how I try I can't bring myself up Living has become a struggle And it's not good My therapist would always say Try to meditate Try yoga My problem can't be solved by exercise or meditation It's a mental disease that affects every aspect of your life Even till now No matter how much I explain depression to people They don't seem to understand I wake up every morning Feeling hopeless  And that has become my norm I'm afraid of the society, I'm afraid of myself I'm afraid of the world This is not fair Do you t